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  2. In-Game Name: BloomN Steam ID64 76561199023922722 Age: 17 Discord Username?: BrickA#9175 Why do you want to join DEFY?: Been playing TTT lately and I wanna be a part of the community. How did you find our clan? Community Server Browser What do you think we can improve on? Knowing rules and owning my mistakes. What are your first impressions of DEFYclan? Great impressions Who invited you to DEFY?: No one but Bot Zeus told me about it. Would you like to change your username or keep it? Keep my username New Username Have you read our server rules & community standards? Yes
  3. Yesterday
  4. In-Game Name: supreme Steam ID64 76561198859528499 Age: 13 Discord Username?: SUPREME#6699 Why do you want to join DEFY?: Because the team seems very nice, one of the members helped me alot with trying to apply and he was very cool to be around. Just inspired me to join. How did you find our clan? Community Server Browser What do you think we can improve on? I havent seen much of what your clan and servers can offer so I cant say that you all need to improve. What are your first impressions of DEFYclan? As Ive said before, the clan seems very chill and fun to be around, the servers are also fun to play on. Who invited you to DEFY?: Nobody Would you like to change your username or keep it? Change my username New Username supreme Have you read our server rules & community standards? Yes
  5. Last week
  6. Think its time to say bye to defy and fill out that resign forum
  7. Hey man, I have a lot more helpful things to say if you wanna ever connect on discord, but I PROMISE you life doesn’t truly begin until after 18-19+...you don’t need to have anything figured out at 17 nor “have lived it all”. You’ll never stop figuring it out as you go...and here’s another insight, even in adulthood NO ONE has it all figured out. Lol. Regardless of that, the best really is to come. You’ll also continuously meet new people who will become a part of your support system and help positively impact/change/challenge you and your world. I have ~4 friends from high school that I still talk to today, if that. All my other friends are people I’ve met as an adult! Anyway, appreciate the shout out and hope all goes well. Reach out if you ever need help!
  8. I would like to inform you that you have been accepted into DEFY as a Junior Member. You may add "Defy | " to the beginning of your name by clicking here. If you have not yet introduced yourself click here! Don't be shy, we won't bite If you have not joined our discord server yet! https://discord.gg/N22t8Mn Once you have the Verified Role on discord you can type !joincsgo to gain access to the CS:GO exclusive channels. You can also type !joingmod or !joinrb6 if you have those games as well.
  9. I would like to inform you that you have been accepted into DEFY as a Junior Member. You may add "Defy | " to the beginning of your name by clicking here. If you have not yet introduced yourself click here! Don't be shy, we won't bite If you have not joined our discord server yet! https://discord.gg/N22t8Mn Once you have the Verified Role on discord you can type !joincsgo to gain access to the CS:GO exclusive channels. You can also type !joingmod or !joinrb6 if you have those games as well.
  10. I would like to inform you that you have been accepted into DEFY as a Junior Member. You may add "Defy | " to the beginning of your name by clicking here. If you have not yet introduced yourself click here! Don't be shy, we won't bite If you have not joined our discord server yet! https://discord.gg/N22t8Mn Once you have the Verified Role on discord you can type !joincsgo to gain access to the CS:GO exclusive channels. You can also type !joingmod or !joinrb6 if you have those games as well.
  11. I would like to inform you that you have been accepted into DEFY as a Junior Member. You may add "Defy | " to the beginning of your name by clicking here. If you have not yet introduced yourself click here! Don't be shy, we won't bite If you have not joined our discord server yet! https://discord.gg/N22t8Mn Once you have the Verified Role on discord you can type !joincsgo to gain access to the CS:GO exclusive channels. You can also type !joingmod or !joinrb6 if you have those games as well.
  12. Good fuck you. Im just playin man if u ever wanna chill in my discord and chat or play comp or anything man im all game and def not that annoying compared to others womtnlist names and would love to see a return in the future brotha. But fr like nyde said this is becoming a trend of a sort.
  13. I am writing this in a 3 am random adrenaline high so it will most likely be deleted later. It is also going to be me ranting about my current, past, and future life. People usually take nostalgia as a good thing but to me, it is like a drug, possess upfront benefits, but shortly after the bad effects outweigh the good. This has been my look on it since i was around 12 and still is now. It came to me while listing to "feel so close" by calvin harris during the part when the guys were walking through an upper mid class neighborhood in the middle of the desert (i guess in CA, NV, or AZ) and they were goofing around and ran into a group of cheerleaders and they had a silly "dance off". Now why nostalgia is a bad thing in my eyes is because when I experience it, I am not remembering events that I miss in my adolescence but I am trying to implant those types of memories of being with friends in the middle of the summer messing around, into my head. I never really had any friends (my character in real life does not branch far off at all from my character online) and never had those experiences to satisfy me. This is all self induced and I am not trying to put full direct blame on other things, but I can to a point. I have always been spoiled and have gotten most of what I want and I am really lazy thus lowering my self-esteem due to lack of achievement and thus giving me heavy social anxiety. (one of the unspoken reasons why i stopped talking and playing). I am at a point in my life (just turned 17) where I have either supposed to have lived it all, or try hard doing so, but I have done neither. I am afraid of the future and want to be young again, I wish i could relive those many moments where I never took the chance. I have lived my life with no challenge and I well know how much that contrasts the future. A couple of weeks ago, I had a dream where I was standing in my college wandering around with nothing to do because it was only a few days before my college would start. I sat in a desk and started crying because I didnt want to go forward. I woke up in my bed balling my eyes out for hours. I have always had anxiety since at least third grade and It has been painstakingly high ever since I turned 17. I am carrying a debt I cannot pay. I know I will not be able to live up to my parents nor their expectations and I have a pretty good sense of how my life will turn out. I have been thinking about this for every night since my birthday and to all the people reading this under 17, live your life, because once you pass 17, the weight of reality starts to fall on you. College life will not be fun for me because my parents are not supporting me whatsoever once I turn 18, so I am doing ROTC and that will cancel out most of the "fun and partying" you would do in college. I guess it kinda hurts to know that only the worst is to come and the best is coming to an end. Defy has been fun. When I originally got onto the defy ttt server, I was coming on to mass rdm and not care, but @pr0fs really showed me what a cool server it was and completely changed my mind, he doesnt even know about this. Lately (past 6 -8 months), the server has been getting less chill and more "ruley" and it is not helping my anxious personality anymore. this is the brag---> I will again flex that I was the longest active member of defy clocking in at a little more than 3 years (joined jan 21 2017). I have been here longer (while active) than the HA's and every current staff excluding Mark. So i have seen a lot, I am like the giver of memories, or a scribe. "I get why I came here, but I forget why I stayed" -the midnight But now, like a basic defy member, I would like to make my shoutouts The absolute top people that I have to thank for the ride are @pr0fs @ItzGray @Dev @PotatoStyle @pepehands @past (who doesnt seam to exist anymore) @liv (same here) @Niall Ferguson (this one"may" jog yall's memory) @neubeerocks367 @Never Done and @Josh for being a cool and always understanding person. One who didnt put up with shit but was still like the nice dad to us. @(and many others) ^yall were the greatest. It was nice to not only have the good experience of the server at the time, but the mass amount of people who amplified it even more. A possibility of this fortune could be the shared taste in all of us to just fuck around and have fun. most of the people including me are gone now. It is nice to hop on ttt and play with the OG's when they return self realization---> I have owned up to being toxic many times before so it wont mean anything extra right now. But i was, I was really toxic (part of that social anxiety i mentioned before) and i can swear that I was not always like that. I am sorry if you were deeply affected by it and am willing to write a personal apology to you on discord. I hope I can get out of this slef destructive lifestyle and i guess dropping some of the video games i play is a good first step. ( not that this is what this is fully about) Defy just got boring to me and the community changed to a more sensitive type that I dont fit into I was going to make a doc with fellow comrades on why I am leaving Defy but now, that would be pointless because the point wanst to get other people to leave but to make myslef feel better on leaving and that would just be beating a dead horse. Wow, imagine actually reading this far in one of my rants. applause to you. pr0fs best staff, he did us well
  14. yeah, dont understand all the hate, the guy said that the community doesnt fit him and he does not have good opinions about the admins. those are valid points to be making on why you would leave.
  15. Pr0fs on top please, above mark and ovo
  16. To be honest, and I think I can say this for just about everyone, you are definitely less annoying than you think. I'm sad to see you go, Cole. I hope that you can find that you might want to come back at some point.
  17. Listen Cole, this is a trend with our younger players. It’s like a little brother thing, no matter what you say or do, eventually the big brother is gonna get annoyed and fed up with you. I would love to see you continue being a part of this community because we’re better off with you in it. I think that as long as you’re more understanding of what causes you to be perceived as annoying or rude and correct it, everyone would love to see your return. If this proves too much for you then goodbye, it was a pleasure.
  18. I have left in the past and somehow managed my way back on the server, but i don't think i will come back this time. I guess i just don't really feel like i belong. The way i would describe it is that i'm like a parasite that no one can get out of their head. I have met so many great people on this server but I am starting to feel like everyone is annoyed by me. There isn't anyone in particular that made me leave, I just feel like you guys would be better off without me. I might talk on discord from time to time but this is the end. Bye.
  19. In-Game Name: Zeus Steam ID64 76561198422560810 Age: 18 Discord Username?: Ninjabytes1#3968 Why do you want to join DEFY?: Ive been playing on the DEFY TTT servers alot recently and have been having a lot of fun. Its a great community and wanted to join the DEFY Clan . How did you find our clan? Community Server Browser What do you think we can improve on? certain times of the day when theres only a few on, people start mass RDM'ing and doing !call doesnt always recieve the same effect as it does when more players are on. What are your first impressions of DEFYclan? When i first joined, everyone was very helpful with trying to get me up to speed with the rules. After i read them i made a few mistakes here and there but people always tried to teach instead of being toxic. Who invited you to DEFY?: Squeaks Would you like to change your username or keep it? Change my username New Username BOT Zeus Have you read our server rules & community standards? Yes
  20. Almost happened to me but i left before it could. The only thing you can do is appeal.
  21. if you were using a vpn you should turn it off and appeal
  22. In-Game Name: FaZe Bible Steam ID64 76561198166726076 Age: 13 Discord Username?: Bible Why do you want to join DEFY?: Good server, I played for a while and I know almost everyone on it. All I do is play ttt on cs soooooo... How did you find our clan? Community Server Browser What do you think we can improve on? More Admins on throughout the day, because there can be a lot of RDM and toxic nono's on. What are your first impressions of DEFYclan? Somewhat hard to understand but fun once you get to learn everything a meet all the people. Who invited you to DEFY?: no one, but i bet people would Would you like to change your username or keep it? Keep my username New Username Have you read our server rules & community standards? Yes
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