It's about time that I do one of these legitimately, but before I go on I would like to let you all know that I am 100% serious about this so please treat it as such.
It seems lately that I have been discriminated against. It isn't intentional though, but let me give some background before I go more into my discrimination.
Hello! I am a 20 year old named Brady. The past few years have been pretty rough for me. Let's start back in 2018 when I joined DEFY. This is the year I started my first year in college. I attended Baylor University for two years until I practically failed out. I ended up with below a 2.0 GPA and so I have decided to go to a community college this semester to get my grades back up. Why did I do so poorly in college? It's because I'm lazy. My father passed away suddenly in July right before I went off to College. My father passing might have some influence on my poor performance, but I decided it didn't have as much of an affect as my laziness. That is part of the reason I have so many hours on the DEFY TTT server. This is why I smoke weed. Because it's a fun way to be lazy. Now that's enough of my physical background, let's take a look at my mental background.
Why am I the way that I am?
Let's take it way back this time. All the way from as young as I remember to around 9th grade, I was a socially awkward chubby kid, who got bullied (never physically), but enough to lower my self esteem tremendously. My social skills really picked up when I was forced to move due to my parents divorce. Over my years of high school I lost weight, got my first gf, and plenty of friends. This was a huge confidence boost, but I still had issues socially until about a year ago. Weed really helped me with this. Smoking weed taught me not to care. I don't care what people think about me and that is what makes me an asshole. The reason I come off as an asshole is because I try to teach others not to care about what other people think. My humor is really satirical, as some of you may know, but most see it ass being an asshole. I don't think it should be seen this way. I am not a mean person. I am not here to be rude. I am here to contribute to the community in my own unique way. Here is another problem I have. I am arrogant. I am smart. I know I'm smart, but more importantly, I am confident. I know what I know, and I will let you know what I think about a given situation. Just because I am smart, doesn't mean I am right always. I know when I am wrong and I am alright with pointing it out, because I do not get embarrassed or offended for being wrong.
Now although I have not been diagnosed, Asperger's runs in my family and I probably have a bit of it. Now this didn't come naturally. It took many hours of humiliation and being made fun of to realize how little it really matters. I hope that eventually a lot of you are able to see the way I do about given situations, but that just isn't practical. I'm here to get better, not to better others, but I can definitely help.
Now here is where I get to the discrimination part. I recently made a post titled "How to not get down-voted." which was taken down without warning for spam or a message describing why it was taken down. I was going to use that post to figure out what I have to do to be able to gain up-votes. I was very disappointed because I was actually getting some information from Josh that I have not been told. This is the first time I have been told I am an asshole or I act like an asshole on the DEFY server. I really would like to be a better, more likable person. I did not receive serious replies, and those that were serious, were not helpful. If you would like to help me out, feel free to message me. If I do something that seems "assholy" just let me know via private messaging over discord or here. I can take everything.
Now that all the seriousness is over, let's get into the fun part.
Why did I choose the name PigOwner?
On the map princesscraft, there is a pig. When I joined, I enjoyed killing the pig and claiming it. I eventually made my name PigOwner to let everyone know who the pig belongs to.
Do you actually own a pig?
No. I own a dog who is a mess so I like to think I technically do own a pig.
What are your goals in DEFY?
I would like to go up in the member ranks, and then eventually apply for Admin. I feel I could make a great admin, so this is why I trying to actually reform myself.
If, for some reason there is nothing to be done regarding my situation, and the toxicity continues onward from both sides, then this is going to be a farewell post. If you all are open as much as I am to change and fixing myself, then we are in for a good long time.
(disclaimer: As long as this disclaimer is here, this post has not been revised so excuse mistakes)